I’d been told to meditate before, a while ago. Maybe thirteen years ago, for the first time, before it was so IN to meditate. It’s now become my non-negotiable. Even if it’s just ten minutes in the morning. I do it. And if if the whole day’s gone by and I still haven’t, I still make sure I do it. Why? For one, it grounds me, it grounds me in the feelings I want to have. It reminds me of my intention for the day. It makes me feel whole without any external stimulation and it just feels like my whole brain is acting together in a wholesome way. There aren’t just random neurons firing in different ways and I’m not just reactive to my day and the messages and the pop-ups – I go into my day with my intention and on my terms. I’m not being bombarded by what the world thinks is important but I go in with my priorities and what I think is important for my day which cumulatively will be my life.
To expand on this, it makes me a lot more intentional on who I want to be – asking myself what am I going to fire and wire today? You become your neural networks and things repeated, become more engrained. The more I practice being conscious of a certain behavior, I can catch myself in that behavior and change it, if I so wish. If I become accustomed to watching my thoughts, watching my behavior, I can see myself doing them – as opposed to being so immersed in them that I think that I am my thoughts. I am not my thoughts, I am the being watching those thoughts, so being able to watch also gives me the ability to pause, pivot and start practicing different thoughts and different behaviors and doing them on purpose – doing them so many times that it starts to become who I am.